QUESTION MEME

[spacehipster]

CHARACTERS ARE REACHING COMMENT MILESTONES AND I AM WORKING ON NOT BEING A SLOW LOSER so time for a meme—an everything meme. Relationship meme, hot or not, first impressions, questions, drabbles, headcanon, plans, PIE CHARTS. GO NUTS. Let's talk about all the things, characters, and games!!

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[sea_it_through]

The card event is one of a number of things that have combined to make Ronan's life absolutely miserable of late! The cards in particular reinforced Ronan's faulty sense of self, in that he could have killed everyone in camp through sheer disinterest and the only reason people were saved from that was not through his own actions, but Jaime's. Further, as much as Ronan pretends to be too cool for school, Ronan cares deeply and profoundly about everything, so the part where people continually demonstrate that they don't know him at all is kind of super hurtful for him. This, having to heal a bunch of people when the moogles dropped out (which means taking on the pain himself), general October stuff, his having to fix what happens when he lies and general homesickness have meant that Ronan passed his ability to be cool with this ages ago! He is faking it. He fakes it well, with most people probably only noticing that he's shorter with people than normal rather than OH GOD CRUSHING ANXIETY AND FRUSTRATION AND BELIEF HE IS A FAILURE! Like! When Ronan made that crack to the Doctor about feeling older than he was it was one of those ironic jokes that he does that are entirely truthful as well: he's exhausted, he hurts, he is miserable and he doesn't remember the last time he did something for him rather than dealing with someone else's problems. But he's also intensely guilty about the whole card thing and so keeps thinking he needs to try harder to fix everything because next time his own innate failures will mean that everyone will die. So that is a thing. But on the other hand he wants someone to come in and have an answer for him, even for a few days, so that he can remember what it's like to be sixteen and stupid.

But unfortunately Ronan is his own worst enemy in that while he wants an adult to come in and take the responsibility for everything off him for a few days, he also ... deliberately has a facade up that means that people don't know that that is what he wants! So people assume that he is totally coping and is cool when actually he's really not. So, rather than ask for help, Ronan is doing his lone wolf thing, gritting his teeth, pretending to be okay, and just hoping no one asks questions he direly does not want to answer. Also so many painkillers.

ANYWAY.

the Doctor is allowed to leave camp ... to visit one era of time for a holiday. What is it and why?